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April 21, 2009

Courtney Mack’s Future

Filed under: Psychology,Uncategorized,University of Rochester — smackamack @ 2:33 pm

So as many of you know, I have lately been trying to figure out what to do with my life after graduation.  Right now its one big mess.

I was someone who always knew what they wanted to do: film, film, film.  However, as graduation day quickly approaches I am beginning to realize that perhaps I am bored with film.  Recently I have found myself more willing to pick up a book than watch a movie, more willing to go out to the theater than the cinema etc. etc.  Now, don’t get me wrong, I still have an undying passion for cinema and always will.  However, I am starting to think more practically.  

I have been advised by many that I should stay in school as long as possible.  Part of me agrees, but part of me doesn’t.  My original dream was to go to the best undergraduate school I could for film and then transfer to NYU for their film masters degree.  I was accepted to University of Rochester but decided to give NYU a shot.  So, I applied to the Tisch Undergraduate program during my Freshman year and actually got in.  Once I transfered, I began to realize that my highest academic dream was already achieved…what would I do next?  Well, everyone in the film business knows, you don’t go to grad school…you get experience.  

So, I focused all my time and energy on film, writing, and internships.  I was lucky enough to get fantastic hands on experience with Stonewall Video, a great name with MTV, and an added internship with Strand Creative Group.  My resume looks awesome…for film.  

The most surprising thing I found while at Rochester was that I loved Psychology.  I excelled in the classes, I found the topic fascinating, so I decided to double major.  When I got to NYU I continued this major, however, it turned out to be highly focused on clinical research (not my cup of tea).  Needless to say, I slid by in all my psych classes so far with Bs.  Right now I actually have a C- in my last class and will not be graduating with the second degree unless I pull it up to a solid C (at NYU, a C is needed to pass).  

Anyway, I have been applying to several jobs and starting to realize that I really don’t like my internship.  I have worked so hard in this career field and am starting to realize that I am bored.  This is such a shitty life, with such shitty pay and as much as I like it, I am more ambitious than this.

So far all that has been decided is that after graduation I will be returning back to Maryland to work for Stonewall Video until I find a more permanent job.  I will also be training with the Mental Health Association as to be able to volunteer as a suicide hotline helper.  

I am someone that can’t settle for something that isn’t good enough, can’t wait around without a plan or goal, so I have a new goal…

1. Finish classes this semester.  More specifically pass psychology and get the double major.

2. Go home and relax for a bit.

3. Start training for Suicide hotline

4. Start work at Stonewall Video

5. Study my ass off for the GREs

6. Study my ass off for the Psychology GREs

7. Take the GREs

8. Apply to the University of Rochester Medical Center of Psychiatry Masters program for a Masters of Science in Marriage and Family Therapy.

9. Pray that I get in.

The reality of me being accept to this program is very small, but, it’s something to work towards for the rest of the year.  Basically, during all of this I will continue apply to film jobs, working etc. and IF I do get in, I will go for their year long program.

It upsets me that I have worked so hard at film…almost straight As in Tisch, 3 interships etc….and now I am looking at Psych, which I of course ignored and got Bs and B-s and didn’t have any internships.  

Things will work out.  I am lucky enough to have a passion for both film and psych, and also learning.  As long as I am working hard towards a goal, I am happy.  

Please let me know what you think…I need some opinions.  Here is the program:

University Program




  1. I like the plan…. and #9 made me LOL 🙂

    I will read about the program when I get home… but having a plan makes you feel a little less psycho does it not?

    Comment by Mel — April 21, 2009 @ 2:47 pm | Reply

  2. Courtney . . you express yourself beautifully. I think you will find your way (eventually) in whatever you are supposed to do – life takes many twists and turns and through the mistakes – missteps – we learn more about ourselves. You have been so successful in all that you have applied yourself that you will ultimately reach that in the career path you choose – no doubt in my mind. I do have an idea though . . . . pass the psychology class – give that everything you have and then graduate with your double major and CELEBRATE – RELISH IN THIS ACCOMPLISHMENT – IT IS HUGE!!!! Pat yourself on the back – give kudos to yourself for the accomplishment and then relax for a bit – clear your head – did I say PAT YOURSELF on the back – did I say – CELEBRATE??? You get the idea . . it will all come together in the way it is meant to . . . your plan sounds like a GREAT plan . . I will pray for you that you get some peace about your decisions and that you learn to CELEBRATE your accomplishments. Sometimes we lose sight of all that we have done because we focus on what we need to be doing.
    I love you Courtney and think you are an amazing young lady. . . .and have I told you I love smackamack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Comment by Leslie — April 21, 2009 @ 7:05 pm | Reply

  3. Don’t you dare think that just because you might deviate from film and study for your master’s in Family Counseling that your studies have been for naught. Learning is learning is learning – it’s about the journey honey! I never had a career in drama – but what I learned those 4 years has held me in good stead all these years.

    Comment by Mum — April 21, 2009 @ 7:54 pm | Reply

  4. Courtney, I agree with all the above, especially Queen Mum – nothing but nothing you learn is ever wasted! I know it sounds glib, but you will find your path in life and thrive a blue streak, because you are smart, determined and incredibly hardworking. As for feeling panicked – I remember feeling exactly the same almost 30 years ago, when I graduated and it all worked out beyond my wildest expectations and in ways I never would have dreamed of. Just keep taking risks like you do and you will get there. And BTW – does anybody denigrate Dr Jonathan Miller for being unfocused/changing career track because he’s a medical doctor and brilliant producer of plays and operas? Hell, no. So keep adding strings to your bow and see where it takes you hon! And all the very best with your finals – we look forward to celebrating with you soon! XXXXXXX

    Comment by Sally Nelson — April 22, 2009 @ 2:33 pm | Reply

  5. I think that you only learn things to make yourself educated in life. And if what you decide isnt what you thought you wanted out of life, well the so be it. Life is short-get all that you can out of it. I will always be proud to have a best friend as smart and goal-oriented as you. 🙂

    Comment by Al — April 22, 2009 @ 3:17 pm | Reply

  6. things will always work out…you find out as you get older that you don’t take yourself so seriously – why not combine the two? if you are getting bored now (a danger sign, actually) will you get bored of psych? are you afraid of success? and why not an MA or MS in psych, so as to go on for PhD?

    i am looking through your post on endo – why not do a film on the horrors of women who have endo, and how we suffer? how it affects us emotionally? take a challenge as your next step…

    also, did you see padma’s big gala this past week for endo? the blossom ball? reach out and help endo women, they sure could use it

    Painful sex / bowel movements can be related to endo in the cul-de-sac / pouch of douglas, located between the rectum and vagina.

    These are some great sites, surgery can help. Endo can get worse without surgery 😦 (they’re great!)

    Comment by lola — April 24, 2009 @ 2:38 am | Reply

  7. there was just a story on woman with endo and suicide issues – i don’t have the link, but google jeanne’s endo blog and you’ll find it as a recent reference

    it’s very sad 😦

    Comment by lola — April 24, 2009 @ 2:39 am | Reply

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